GenQ - For the not so straight individual

There comes a time when something unexpected, something unimaginable occurs. We cant help but feel guilty; guilty that we were unable to help, unable to do something. 

Overcome with sorrow, sadness and eyes rushing with tears, you reminisce. You remember the laughs, fights, and meaningless conversations whose sole purpose was to liven the spirits and bring you closer in an ever-growing familiar bond. A small, hidden smile appears once in a while as youre drawn back to the times when you laughed. Laughed about everything, laughed about nothing; but still laughed together. Then the tears come. They come not because they mean you harm, but because they want to help. Your heart, your soul, your spirit are in shock. Their emotions are trapped. Not knowing what to feel, what to say, what to think, they cry. They cry for you. The tears help you come together as one and make sense of whats going on. 

But what do you do? 

What can you do? 

You cant go back in time. Even when you pray and wish for the opportunity, you just cant. You ache. The body that once offered you safety and shelter begins to depart from the inner you. Uneasiness and denial take you to a separate world. A world away from where you are, away from where you were. You feel alone in a darkness that gets only darker and darker.