GenQ - For the not so straight individual

Have you ever wondered if there really was that one perfect person in the world for you? We all think about these things and as a gay teen, I dream a lot. The relationships we may have had in the past might have been satisfying at the time we lived them, but once we lose the person in that relationship, we might end up regretting things that we have done. My relationship with a guy called Thomas who meant so much to me was a tragedy. I poured my heart and soul out to him. He wasnt necessarily a hot guy or a cute one either, however I saw a guy that I can live with for the rest of my life. The prince charming that I would run away with and live happily ever after.

I was with him for a month before he told me that he never loved me from the start and that he just wanted to hold me and kiss me to see if any feelings for me would develop. The moment he told me that, I was shattered. I had an oral task which was due the next morning he told me he couldnt be with me. Sadly, I hadnt even started it yet, and ended up sleeping only two hours for that following week, and cried all day and night and I even vomited. I returned to see the places we went together and held each other. Everywhere I turned, there was a memory, a memory Ill never forget. As for Tommy, he wants to only be friends. I saw him the week after he dumped me, all I did was sit in front of him crying, I couldnt look at him or talk to him for a whole hour. It was ridiculous!!! When I met his nephew, sister and mother, I felt as if I fitted in well, as if I could be part of his family. On the downside, I knew we would never be together again.

Relationships are so complicated, you want them to work out but then there is always something which is bound to happen which may threaten the couple whether it is feelings, another person or even the death of a loved one. Sometimes we wonder how we should find our partner, through their looks? Their charm? Their money? Or their social status?

Personally, I believe you need to really love a person at heart and not just for sex or how a person looks. There is no point to a relationship if you only have sex. I dreamt of Tom before we met, I knew I was going to love him, but I never expected to be taken down by him at the same time. Sometimes we can just wish people can be honest with themselves so that we dont get hurt.